Wednesday, February 13, 2019

❝ I'M BACK ❞

Wow, I'm embarrassed that it's been so long since I've last been on here. April 8th was the last time I posted a blog. Don't worry, I'm back now, but let me tell you what's been going on. First of all, the reason I stopped posting was because I forgot to renew my website domain, and it wouldn't let me get it again because I was too late and surpassed the 30 day time frame I had to renew my domain before it deleted it. FOR GOOD!!! I'm also not tech savy at all so I didn't know how to get it back until my best friend, Jared, helped me fix everything. Thank god for him. So now I'm back, and now I have a logo for my blog :) 
I've been dying to get back to my blog because I've been working on my books and wanting to start looking into getting those published. I'll get back into that in a second, though. I have been dying to get back to my blog, ONCE AGAIN, because I have noticed my facebook page getting a lot of traffic. It just started blowing up for no reason! But everyday for a while, and even currently, I've been getting likes and it makes me sooo happy! SO KEEP IT GOING. 

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Anyway, I'm going to really try to get back to my blog. I'm going to try to get you guys a post EVERY Monday. That's my goal, hold me to it? I've been extremely busy with school, my sorority, and work. However, writing is what ultimately makes me so happy, so I need to stop putting it aside. And I haven't completely, I have been working on my books, which I wanted to get back and update you all with. I completely finish my first book, Beautiful Tragic, last summer (2018). However, being the perfectionist I am, I'm going to rewrite a whole section before I print off my manuscript. 
I am currently working on my second book, Black Butterfly, and it's going great! I'm really happy with both of them, and I can't wait for the day I can print off my manuscript and take it to an editor and a publisher. My goal was to start looking into it this summer, but we shall see what happens.. i'll keep you updated :) 

So, that's all for this post. It was just a short post updating you on where I've been, what I've been doing. Which is literally just work and school and sorority stuff. But I am going to try to get back into this because I really need to start getting myself back out there and getting my writing out there. So thank you guys for liking my page even though my blog was broken.

Next post will be more interesting and it will be on Monday!!
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Thursday, April 5, 2018

❝ National Poetry Month ❞

In honor of national poetry month, enjoy some of my poetry! I'm currently working on two projects right now: The Eunoia Series and How the Moon loved the Sun Series. I will post a few poems from there, and also just some of my favorite poems I've written. Okay, enjoy. (: 
The Eunoia Series

FEUILLEMORT
(n.) the color of a dying leaf 

"I saw the color in his eyes fade, 
Once so full of green, 
and so full of life. 
Sunflowers bloomed in the 
meadows of his soul. 
But the pigments started to change, 
and the leaves started to lose their coloration. 
His hope fell, 
fluttering to the ground, 
with the leaves
in the fall. 
But darling, 
this pain, 
it comes and goes 
just as the seasons do. "


MELLIFLUOUS
(adj.) a sound that is sweet and smooth, pleasing to hear.

"The music was beautiful, 
I had forgotten how much I love to dance. 
The lyrics were lovely, 
singing of love in the moonlight,
the moon our only light. 
And you… 
you were prepossessing that night, 
the way you let me dance off beat, 
and sing out of key. 
I’d never forget this song, 
the way it made us feel. 
Those feelings may be gone,
and you may not be as beautiful as I thought, 
but that night was, 
and I’ll never forget.
This was our song, 
and it was very pleasing to hear,
Still, 
even when you can’t be here."


SELCOUTH 
(adj.) unfamiliar, rare, strange, and yet marvelous.

"It started with a tingle;
a subtle vibration in my bones; 
a warm fuzziness in the pit of my stomach. 
It felt like a sigh of relief,
when a weight is lifted from your shoulders. 
It felt like the warmth on my skin, 
after stepping out in the sun. 
It felt like the wind in my hair, 
with all the windows down in the car. 
It felt like the rush of a rollercoaster. 
I had never felt anything like it before. 
I didn’t know loving myself 
could be such a marvelous feeling." 


How the Moon Loved the Sun 
"Even when the moon 
Gets her chance to see the sun. 
She’s still not close enough; 
He’s so out of touch." 


"He left and we both 
fell back in love with other people. 
What we had, 
Wasn’t meant for us.
Just like the sun and the moon;
We would love to love each other 
But we just couldn’t get it right."

"Just like the moon and the sun; 
I’d never get the pleasure 
Of basking in your light. 
Instead, I had to take you in pieces -
In the form of stars. 
And you... 
you didn’t need me to shine. 
But I needed you. "



Now for the Random poetry.

YOU’D NEVER DO THE SAME FOR ME. 

"You asked me to dance, 
and I was never much of a dancer, 
but I took your hand anyway. 
I admired how you took the lead, 
swaying, and lifting me up off my feet. 
I asked you to sing along, 
and you were never much of a singer, 
so you waved me off. 
You always said you hated, 
how my voice overpowered your own. 
So you never sang along."

BURNED

"Our forever must’ve ended yesterday
Because that’s when you decided 
You no longer wanted to stay.
But an Aries will do 
What an Aries must do. 
But even as a Sagittarius...
I was never enough for you." 


WISHING ON STARS

"I wish we could’ve been more, 
I wish we could’ve seen the sun, 
after the rain. 
I wish we could’ve loved each other more, 
but we didn’t so now, 
we’re wishing on stars." 


SOMEBODY ELSE

"Remember the dreams we had? 
You said we’d chase the sun together.
You promised we’d get out of this town 
And go to the city
Where the streets were loud enough 
To drown out the sound in our heads.
You told me we’d have a wedding on the beach 
And three kids someday. 
You put these visions of forever in my head.
So how was It so easy for you to love
Somebody else?" 


FADED AWAY.

"Your love withered away, 
just like the roses you gave me 
on Valentine’s day. 
But I was never a fan of roses, 
anyway."
@sincerelysagittrius on Instagram. 
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Monday, December 11, 2017

❝ Managing Stress ❞

I'd like to think that I survived finals, but I really didn't. I'm writing this, and I haven't even taken the two finals that I do have. I guess two isn't a lot considering some people have a lot more than that, so I guess I got lucky with how many I have to take. However, Biology is one of the finals I have to take and that class killed me all semester. It doesn't help that I had the worst professor I could've gotten, with the highest fail rate out of all of them. I didn't believe it until I had to suffer through it, and when I meant suffer... I mean I really suffered. 
What really stressed me out all semester is that I was taking classes I didn't need to take. What I mean by that is that I could've taken better classes, ones that I know I could succeed in, but freshmen were thrown into classes, unable to pick their own classes. This is a really horrible process and I do not appreciate VCU doing that. Instead of Biology I could've taken Environmental science and Elementary Astronomy. Funny how I'm taking one of the hardest classes here for no reason. I didn't know I could drop the class, they made it seem like bio was a dire necessity to graduate. It's not. 
Now, I'm not failing the class, but I definitely don't have the grade I want. 
Side note: my professor got sick and had to get surgery so he was out for a whole section (October 15 - November 8) and that was the only exam I passed with an exceptional grade. Funny how I do best when I had another professor teaching me, who could actually explain the material without getting off track and going on tangents about god only knows what. 
Safe to say Biology was my biggest issue all semester. The closer it got to finals, the more I started stressing. I try not to stress because I know the toll stress takes on my body. Unfortunately, I stressed myself out to the max and I actually got extremely sick. My asthma got worse, my sinuses started to mess with me. Asthma is the inflammation of air passage ways in the lungs, Sinusitis - which is what I had and had to get surgery - is the inflammation of nasal passage ways. Stress raises cortisol levels, which creates inflammation. I literally made myself sick. I also got a cold, which I think turned into Bronchitis, so I really couldn't breathe for a few days. 
Then I had a realization. I cannot be doing this to myself and I need to manage my stress. So I also want to help anyone taking finals, or taking any exam or doing anything in life that is stressing them out to their max. This was a horrible week for me. I have been so happy, I started loving myself and working on myself and putting my own happiness above everything and I've been extremely happy with life since I got to school and opened this new chapter in my life. However, this stress kind of set me back a little bit. I wasn't depressed, but I definitely wasn't happy, especially with school which is a huge part of my life right now. 
So I have some stress relieving strategies that I use and that personally help me: 
In General 
Bad Juju does not help. Trust me. I know I'm a very spiritual person, but this is serious and this is real. When you have other people around you being negative, it is going to rub off on you. So in these times, remove the negativity from your life. Whether that be things, or people. For me, it was a person, so I started to distance myself from this person and started thinking positive thoughts. This person only brought me down. I then surrounded myself with people who lift me up, instead of putting me down. 
I surrounded myself with people who inspired me and who motivated me. Once I did that, I started to feel better and I started to get motivated to actually study and be part of life again - after my sickness had me trapped in my little room all day for several days. I was also really unmotivated to write, and that is when you know something is up. So continue to do the things you love, once I started writing again, working on my poetry and my stories, I felt motivated to do school work again. So please, don't stop doing the things you love and when you're studying and you're getting stressed. TAKE A BREAK! It's okay, you have time to take a break and do something that makes you happy. 
I started getting stressed out studying for bio, that's why I started writing this!
Meditation 
 
Again, I know I'm a super spiritual person, but mediation really does help. You just have to be open-minded about it. These people come in with a closed mind, thinking meditation doesn't work and that it's stupid. Well obviously it isn't going to work if you have that mindset... It's literally all about mentality. It's about clearing your mind and healing. You don't need crystals and stones to heal, but I love to use my crystals and stones. I also started getting more advanced with my meditation and I use affirmations. Affirmations are used for positive thinking and self-empowerment, and there are different affirmations for each crystal. I'll put them below but unfortunately, I'm sitting in a Panera and don't have my crystals to take pictures of. These are only a few crystals and a couple affirmations of each. The list is endless, these are the ones that I find most helpful in stressful times. 
Amethyst:  "I honor my body as the temple that nourishes my soul" ; "Today, I am creating a better version of myself". 

Rose Quartz: "I am worthy and deserving of love in my life and I am able to give and receive love and affection with ease" ; "I radiate beauty, confidence, and grace" 

Pyrite: "I am creating the career of my dreams." ; "I act clearly and consciously from my deepest truth"

Quartz: "My mind, body and soul are energized" ; "I am selfless in the light of one". 

Citrine: "I fully embrace my courage, confidence, success, and self-worth" ; "I radiate happiness and positive energy"

Lapiz Lazuli: "The highest good is manifesting in my life right now" ; "I claim the power of my highest self".

Blue Lace Agate: "I am surrounded by people that support my happiness and personal growth" ; "I always seem to be in the right place at the right time and I enjoy the benefits of divine living" 

Music 
Music is seriously a universal language and it is very beneficial to stress and work. I wrote a whole paper on this for psychology, I should know, trust me. Whether this be just listening to music, or singing along, or even making your own music. This is a very important category for me, personally, because just listening to music can help me through anything. My best friend at school told me that he thinks it's interesting how I listen to the music primarily for the words. But it's true, I do, and this is because words are a very powerful thing to me. They can either break me, repair me, or both. Each with very positive connotation. Yes, I listen to sad music when I'm sad and yes it makes me more sad, but in a good way. 
Not only is it the words that get me, but also the music behind the words. When I'm studying I love songs that have chill, good-feeling vibes. I'll provide a list of songs, with links (just click on the song title if you're interested), that I listen to when I'm studying or doing work and they really help me get through and they actually push me through until the end. These are just some songs that I have been currently listening to, the list I have could go on for miles. These songs are also the ones that get me to focus, whether it be because of the words, or the music. So give them a listen. I judge songs by the titles, so if you don't want to listen to all of them, then pick out the one that sounds most interesting. They're all very good songs (: Seriously guys, I literally would not survive without music. 

Don't let stress get the best of you! These are the ways in which I try and attempt to manage my stress and when I do do these things, I can manage pretty well. It's when I put these things off that I become most stressed. I hope I helped at least one person with this! Good luck to whoever has finals! 
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